It's a gamble, double down or don't

My entire life can  be summed by one strategy: risk avoidance.  This year is about going all in.  Everything I do.  No more tacit toe dipping full submersion trust that the air will be there when I need it.  I was cleaning out my storage and I had to recognize how ridiculous it was that I had wasted all this money on a storage space when I had lived with my boyfriend for over 2 years.  2 extremely blissful years and I still hadn't moved in.  Holding back has held me back I haven't been growing emotionally.  In this spirit I did something I never thought I'd do...I took communion.  This isn't some weird sacrilegious thing.  I've just started going to church for the first time ever not just as an adult but like as a human person and the pastor told everyone to partake and I just went for it.  It was way weird but I love my church; it is packed to the rafters with genteel elderly white people.  The hyper liberal lady pastor wears open toed shoes but she gives one heck of a sermon.